Choices’ Dead Weight

is For Consequences Acceptance.

Today, after a year, I discovered my choices’ dead weight.

That will be my thinking confession. Sometimes the thunder of enlightenment strikes unexpectedly. It’s a weird feeling. It seems like a mix between bitterness, clarity, and self-pity. For me, it happened that way. The moment I let go of everyone and everything, I started to feel free from all the burdens. Sometimes there is a point of no return in the present life and the only way is forward without explanation. The feeling is like screaming inside out to go forth.

The realization of Dead Weight turns into emotional baggage that is part of a human’s soul.

Sometimes that luggage takes a lot of space and time to drop while life goes on. Once released, the baggage gives fresh air to the heart. It builds new wings. Deadweight may connect to real death cases. Many people these days take their own lives because of their living circumstances.

If that is courage or fear escape is something that everyone sees differently. The emotional baggage becomes heavy and some people can’t take it anymore and especially if these humans are prone to living in solitude. They are challenged to ask others for support. My case is similar and the consequences I received, are damaged beyond repair, but they made me complete.

Dead Weight as a decision’s meaning.

Many people make conscious choices their way is not the one they began to follow in their adult lives. There is a need for adaptation when the situation is new. Based on my recent experience, my life now goes toward a destination I have never imagined. It’s time for me to take a weird turn and to be a part of something I never was into.

My past choices and healing tears led me here today. The changes before me are inevitable and I feel them with every fiber of my body, even if I can’t explain them. The reason is most of my emotional baggage became a dead weight. I threw it away and received my freedom by choice.

But, someone I loved, died from the carriage of dead weight he choose not to throw.

Death never gives answers or solutions. It just shuts down the problem’s mouth, transferring it to the living people. That makes them wonder what happened. People should be clear with each other while alive and look for solutions together. It doesn’t matter if the parties are separated or haven’t met for a long time, the human attitude always comes first despite worse situations.

Shedding many tears at the funeral of my blood relative, I wondered how could that happen to him. My choice was to treasure the good memories with my cousin when we were teenagers than the worse ones.   He will stay forever a good, young man, with big dreams and I will carry him into my heart because he is precious to me.

From those I  have already lost, I created the most precious and beautiful diamond necklace to wear throughout my life proudly, making them smile above in the skies. I owe that to my loved people, who are now angels.