Or Not? – A Poem
Dedicated
To Transmigrators
Phoenix, they say, will rise.
Sometimes it happens. Or not?
I love using metaphor
To escape my emotion of broke
Because I feel lonely
And my heart’s empty
Looking for true love
That is indeed my only
Soul, and nothing above
I lost many friendships
Or should I say I was lost?
Within the life crossroads
Which may break me. Or not?
They only made me stronger
But the power is not hot,
Whenever everyone tells you
You’re powerful. Or not?
That brings me no delight.
In the end, I am alone in the fight
That brings me to ashes
Of never-ending dashes
Until I become acceleration,
And then – transmigration.
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It has been a transformative year for me, and my heart healing is not at its fullest. I was strong, rejected, and used as a woman by many males, but kept my cool. Some of these people wanted to be physical with me, others stole my energy to motivate themselves regarding their selfish interests. I do not hate anybody, but the damage I have is still present. Thanks to it, I am who I am today.
Objectively speaking, I am a great woman – assertive, powerful, sexy, and goal-oriented. If there is a need to step back, I do it intelligently, standing on my two feet in everything. Arrogant or not, I back up my words with actions. My masculinity, honor, and dignity are more than that of most men.
Shame on me! I want to be a woman with feminine energy and never imagined how hard would be after so many years of living as a male in every relationship I had.
My well-known confession is that the life movement or cycle is never-ending – rise, soar, and burn down in ashes. Life periods never change, only reactions to the situation make a person who lives now and reflects the past.
The questions are: Are You a Phoenix, Transmigrator, or Fire Extinguisher? And at What price of survival? Or not?
Changes are inevitable and it doesn’t matter how far people run or hide. That is a good reminder to everyone who prefers living uncomfortably in depression, with empty feelings. The void inside could not be filled with material possessions.
Whatever choice people make, they should remember the consequences define the future and the example they give to their children and everyone else.