Hollywood Hills Or The Great Ocean’s Waves?

Hollywood Hills or The Great Ocean's Waves?

Hollywood Hills Or The Great Ocean’s Waves?

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About Life Choices.

Recently I listen to one of my favorite songs. It’s “Holywood Hills” by Sunrise Avenue. That song’s lyrics gave me a reason to think and create another confession.

Everybody knows about Hollywood Hills Dream. Not many people understand the price of staying there and that they’re somehow limited in their lives. I have never been a resident of a rich neighborhood and maybe will not be. But, after reading about many famous people, my idea about Hollywood’s life summarizes loneliness. Pure and unknown for ordinary people because in Holywood nobody stays with a person for himself.

The idea of the “Hollywood Hills” song is about choices.

To stay in the rich neighborhood under the radar of everyone and the lack of privacy, or live an ordinary life, doing what the heart desires?

Becoming a famous person has a price and it’s not for everyone. Surely, materialistic and consumer life in every area is interesting.

Will that be forever?

I am not sure about it. The reason for my love for “Holywood Hills” is that I have been on both sides of life – rich and poor.  While living in my hometown years ago, my family was wealthy. And still, it is, but I am not there.

When I moved to Burgas for love toward my ex-boyfriend and the sea fifteen years ago, my knowledge of poverty grew rapidly, looking at the great ocean’s waves of my new life.

It was not the pretty picture my mind painted. The daily fight with bills and life matters, in general, started immediately. I learned to organize better and to create a budget. Many things I didn’t even know while living under the gold parental wing showed up. Everything was unknown to me since I lived in a golden cage.

Listening to the “Hollywood Hills” song gives me chills. It shows the internal fight to continue living as there is no tomorrow with the dirtiness and limitations of a materialistic world or going free when no money is a motivator, but the internal fire to achieve goals.

Heart’s freedom is not an easy choice. Many sacrifices are required to follow a fast heartbeat but that state is the closest to happiness.

The great ocean’s waves are in the context of living alone.

Being alone means freedom to follow individual dreams without brainwashing models of life which can be easily found in places like Holywood Hills. To stay there someone should lose identity and follow the rules of popularity. They are harsh and isolating.

Living a rich life has two cons: falseness and loneliness. The pros are money and pleasure.

When people have enough material things, they start to feel suffocating and bored because they literally can buy everything, including “friends”. But, the companions stay by the person’s side until they are under the spotlight. When they got sick, they have caretakers because there are no close-to-heart people to care for them. They never feel sincere human contact for free.

On the other side, living a free life has sincerity from a small group of people has a positive side, but the negative is sometimes feeling shallow and trapped in the mundane. But that shall pass.

The true expression of feelings through the things people love to do can’t be experienced with no money in the world. It’s a fact wealth is important, but when there is freedom of living, that stays on life’s backseat.

My belief is people should live outside any limitations that society and money put on them forcefully and they choose it for free sometimes. That is why I love the “Holywood Hills” song so much.

Fitting In – Triolet Poem

Fitting in - Triolet Poem

Fitting In – Triolet Poem

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Dedicated to relationship uncertainty and status quo.

These fitting-in situations should be cleared as soon as possible.

 

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Where do I fit in your living?

I started my mind cleaning.

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Do I enter into your life or do I leave it?

I  may physically cut it for a mental reason.

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Where do I fit in your living?

 

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Triolet poems always give clarity in every situation. But the purpose of “Fitting in” is a wake-up call from a questionable relationship dynamic. Many people do not explain themselves to their new partners.

Actions speak louder than words when it comes to fitting in someone’s life.

Based on my experience, I haven’t felt a part of my questionable partners. My curiosity points to “Are we even a couple without talking it out?” and the reply is a sound “No.”

The human brain always plays tricks when there is a matter of the heart. Questions like “Oh, does he has a lot of work to not call me?” for weeks or “Does he ever think of me?” for a month, and “What are we?” always roam through the mind of the involved person. It’s called the status quo. The interesting here is many people try to lie and use their self-beliefs against themselves. They think that someone is busy with his life and for that reason can’t find time to call or text.

 The situation of fitting into someone’s life gives a clear answer to the status quo.

 It takes time for someone to start liking another person and know where they stand. In most cases, after the first three dates make things clear. There is an old saying that when a man can live without a woman for a day, he can do it for life. Today people are liberated and allow a man or a woman to live without contacting them for weeks, and even months or years, thinking “He loves me but is busy.”

If someone is too busy in the first place, and cannot fit into others’ lives, why they even started to communicate without finishing it?

I believe it’s better to not start anything without the idea of wrapping it. It’s like a martyr’s game. Yes, it’s painful to let go and watch how something beautiful fades away, but it’s better to draw a line if there will be only knowing someone briefly or going deeper with them.

Like an ex-martyr whom I liked to play a lot, now I stand strictly on my two feet. My brokenness was so much I couldn’t even stop thinking about staying single and made delusions for a man who doesn’t even find the time to text or it was uncomfortable to speak on the phone with me in his friend’s presence. They will say he is a man under a slipper.

So What?

Every man becomes under slipper after many years of family life and women become home-wives in one way or another. That shouldn’t look like a claim, it’s a fact. On the other side, many people do not want to commit to not losing their faces or egos.

Fitting in other people’s lives.

In every relationship is good to check signs if both partners are making efforts to fit into each other lives. At first, small steps, then gradually to leaps if they are worth it. Being objective in a relationship dynamic is always a must and there is no need for self-pity or creating a delusional idea for someone. Activities together and conversations about shared futures show that people are involved in each other’s lives and want to be together without avoiding contact.

There is no need for forced fitting into someone’s life. Listen to your hearts.

 

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