Some Closures Are Unexpected And Other – Fated

is dedicated simply to individual intuition.

Sometimes the closures come unexpectedly. It’s valid both for relationships, friendships, business partnerships, and people in general.

Yesterday the sister of a man I loved one-sided died in his arms. As a friend, I acted like one and called to show emotional support despite the circumstances between us. It’s my nature to act humanely and tolerant even to those who treated me no good. That is my vulnerability and I am not afraid to share it anymore.

It was a clear sign our fated closure with him became a fact.

My intuition always told me is not my place in his world, among his close friends in another town, and life in general. He tried to tell me that many times and I felt it but I thought is only based on my negative mindset back then. It wasn’t. I should listen better to my intuition and now know my freedom to go on a different life path than him is an opened window.

As an enamored woman and loyal friend, my first questions were: “Should I come to you? Do you want me to be there?” and his reply cut: “No need to drive so many hours” – the emotion was deep and his sadness too, but between the lines I read clearly: “Leave me alone” and I did.

I always knew we end up like that but tried to play it cool to the last breath of that relationship. “Look, you can always count on me for everything and whenever you decide, call me at least to listen to you,” and his final words: “Thank you. I call you sometime,” but that moment will not come. It’s pretty well known when a man or woman says sometimes means sounding “No” or “Never.”

However, his younger sister’s death was unexpected and sad but somehow known because she was very sick.

The only thing I could do for that man yesterday was to pray for him and his sister. I believe she is in a better place and always will watch over him. I sent my positive and new-found powerful energy into space to support my loved one last time. My hope is it did reach him.

And what I started to do after finally understanding once again some love is not meant to be?

My talent once was drawing with colored pencils. It was asleep for the last twenty years. Yesterday was the day to wake up my colorful thinking and self-indulging in the drawing. Today I found myself heading back to my once-lost and forgotten dream to paint abstract flowers.

It’s weird, right?

I do not mind anymore what other people think. Between the closures with people in my life, I have reborn my authentic self and the long-forgotten joys of life. Starting today, I will draw with my colored pencils and thoughts, showing my daughter what is to enjoy a life that is found in little things.

Even if I am not like Frida Khalo, my energy is high and oriented to my woken-up ability. It’s the only way to survive in a world where people step over others’ feelings and do not care much for someone outside themselves. I draw and will show the meaning of small joys to everyone who dares to read outside the lines of pathetic, framed, and materialistic thinking.

It’s fact people are different, but that most are conformists is also a proven truth.

Closures between them are known to happen by personal intuition since the first time both people meet. The trap is that one believes things will change because he wants to, but the heart knows best. When there is no immediate attraction on a deeper level, every kind of relationship will fall apart with time.

The sad truth about unexpected closures is people are not prepared to grieve a lost lover, family member, or failed job plan. But it’s meant to happen for a person to grow and find their true purpose while becoming better for themselves. Like I did with find finding again my will to draw.

On the other side, fated closures are born from personal uncertainty and low self-esteem from past situations that are not healed or fears which are not faced. My fears were my outlook and weird creative personality acceptance. There was a sincere disinterest toward me by my family members and unrequited lovers in the past. It took me a lot of time, tears, and projected drama to overcome them all. It was also my temper most of the time but I succeed in learning from the closures I received.

For example, the men I met in my life became better persons, even over my broken heart.

My happiness lies in the fact I supported and inspired them. It’s always a good feeling when helping someone and lifting him. The closure with them was fated and I knew it from the first time I met them but didn’t listen to my intuition. I wanted to feel more than what could be given by these males for me.

Knowing that all along is pitiful, but people love to think they have found the best business partner, friend, or date. The duality essence lies in the human mind and heart every time. It’s a form of magical art for logic and romance to be on the same page. The same goes for two people to do the same. Don’t you think?

P.S. – I will write twice per week – on Wednesday and Sunday. The featured picture of the post is my drawing.

“Carnival Row” Is For The Following Heart

is dedicated to revolutions inside and out.

I had a break from work for a few days and decided to check out the “Carnival Row” series. The myths they used for its creation are interesting and authentic. The atmosphere also seemed promising, but starting watching it, I found out it has deep and meaningful life lessons for everyone.

True love, humans, and not only, differences, revolutionary spirit – it has it all. I loved every single scene in it, especially the last episode of Season 2 when it was the only peaceful time in the series world.

Since I lost 300 blog subscribers and my Zumba students, I needed the inspiration to continue following my heart’s passions.

“Carnival Row” brought back my spark, and I am grateful for finding it. It made me happy as much as I dared to make a clean breakup with many people in my life. Thanks to this series I am happy today with my life and simply love it.

What makes “Carnival Row” special and enlightening?

It connects people and mythical creatures’ souls on a high note when it comes to true love and it shows they’re equal in terms of feelings, will to live, and perceptions of security. The peace between their differences gives stability and a better understanding of the nature of those who created the conflicts between nations. That same talk is valid today for the current life situation between humans in different countries.

The interesting lesson in the series was about freedom, especially its price. Everyone knows there is no free thing in the materialistic world. Here comes the question if people can pay what they’re bargained for and if they can bear the action’s consequences.

Is it possible for you?

That question for me was a wake-up call. Going wherever without proper thought or plan seems crazy. It’s not, but acceptance of that truth from a logical mind is almost impossible. Following the heart is inevitable. The sooner people understand it, as I did, it’s for good.

Feelings may change with time but the memories and experiences they created, do not. The main life lesson in “Carnival Row” was that true love stays forever when found, and overcame various challenges. Of course, that takes time, realization is usually painful if there’s no turning back. However, it’s the best life changer for those who seek self-love and peace with others on a higher energy level. It’s important to understand that even if someone is not a forever person in others’ life, they made it a better human and taught them various perspectives.

For example, when I broke up, I was happy and grateful. I did it with a smile because I learned a lot from that person, saying everything I wanted truthfully and was honest until our romance’s endgame. Maybe one day he will understand why I did what I did and appreciate me as a good memory.

Do you know the revolution for a better world starts from one inspired heart to change?

Revolutioners are seen as madmen, despots, psychos, etc. That is not the truth. They have a belief and are ready to pay the price for the higher, cause even if it brings them shame, mistakes, and radical actions. It takes bravery to lead toward a new world, and that is why I respect the so-called villain characters in “Carnival Row” like Leonora. She is a mythical creature faun with a broken horn and leader of the “New Dawn” revolutionary movement, doing everything for peace between the nations and sacrificing many people and even herself for change. Her final words: “Seeds are planted,” made clear the change revolution is a fact with a legacy.

Not many humans today can agree with that, right?

I’m a retro woman and enjoy characters who want to do something for a greater cause. It reminds me of myself, going toward the unknown and the many walls I should break or climb in the search for humanity. That was my blog’s intention the moment I created it. It’s a bit sad many people left my side online, but I don’t blame them. I am happy for every reader who stays by my side here and they have my appreciation.

The funny thing today is everything stays the same as in the “Carnival Row” – unwillingness to change the wheel of life through acceptance of various qualities outside races, power, vanity, and greed. People fear s much the inevitability of changes in every life’s field that they use every resort they know to stop it even if that means stealing or stepping on others’ lives. It doesn’t matter if that happens through slavery, humiliation, manipulation, and using those who still know what are love, acceptance, and human understanding.

However, following the heart outside the daily theater is a luxury only those who dare to accept the consequences of their actions can do. They’re a few. I highly suggest to everyone to watch “Carnival Row” and understand the truths they refuse to accept. Thinking leads to better if only people allow themselves to do it outside the known patterns. Do not sleep over your life’s truths because living them is for once.