Hollywood Hills Or The Great Ocean’s Waves?

Hollywood Hills or The Great Ocean's Waves?

Hollywood Hills Or The Great Ocean’s Waves?


About Life Choices.

Recently I listen to one of my favorite songs. It’s “Holywood Hills” by Sunrise Avenue. That song’s lyrics gave me a reason to think and create another confession.

Everybody knows about Hollywood Hills Dream. Not many people understand the price of staying there and that they’re somehow limited in their lives. I have never been a resident of a rich neighborhood and maybe will not be. But, after reading about many famous people, my idea about Hollywood’s life summarizes loneliness. Pure and unknown for ordinary people because in Holywood nobody stays with a person for himself.

The idea of the “Hollywood Hills” song is about choices.

To stay in the rich neighborhood under the radar of everyone and the lack of privacy, or live an ordinary life, doing what the heart desires?

Becoming a famous person has a price and it’s not for everyone. Surely, materialistic and consumer life in every area is interesting.

Will that be forever?

I am not sure about it. The reason for my love for “Holywood Hills” is that I have been on both sides of life – rich and poor.  While living in my hometown years ago, my family was wealthy. And still, it is, but I am not there.

When I moved to Burgas for love toward my ex-boyfriend and the sea fifteen years ago, my knowledge of poverty grew rapidly, looking at the great ocean’s waves of my new life.

It was not the pretty picture my mind painted. The daily fight with bills and life matters, in general, started immediately. I learned to organize better and to create a budget. Many things I didn’t even know while living under the gold parental wing showed up. Everything was unknown to me since I lived in a golden cage.

Listening to the “Hollywood Hills” song gives me chills. It shows the internal fight to continue living as there is no tomorrow with the dirtiness and limitations of a materialistic world or going free when no money is a motivator, but the internal fire to achieve goals.

Heart’s freedom is not an easy choice. Many sacrifices are required to follow a fast heartbeat but that state is the closest to happiness.

The great ocean’s waves are in the context of living alone.

Being alone means freedom to follow individual dreams without brainwashing models of life which can be easily found in places like Holywood Hills. To stay there someone should lose identity and follow the rules of popularity. They are harsh and isolating.

Living a rich life has two cons: falseness and loneliness. The pros are money and pleasure.

When people have enough material things, they start to feel suffocating and bored because they literally can buy everything, including “friends”. But, the companions stay by the person’s side until they are under the spotlight. When they got sick, they have caretakers because there are no close-to-heart people to care for them. They never feel sincere human contact for free.

On the other side, living a free life has sincerity from a small group of people has a positive side, but the negative is sometimes feeling shallow and trapped in the mundane. But that shall pass.

The true expression of feelings through the things people love to do can’t be experienced with no money in the world. It’s a fact wealth is important, but when there is freedom of living, that stays on life’s backseat.

My belief is people should live outside any limitations that society and money put on them forcefully and they choose it for free sometimes. That is why I love the “Holywood Hills” song so much.

Channeling The Energy Is A Challenge

Channeling the Energy is A Challenge

Channeling The Energy Is A Challenge

That Should Be Done Properly Because The Personal Losses Are Huge

The 2022 end is near. It’s understandable people make yearly resolutions, even if they do not want to do it. As for me, that year was a good one in terms of professional and personal development. Outside my unsuccessful love and financial affairs, I had great memories in Dubai, and with my daughter. For material things, I bought a new car in May. That purchase helped me to travel to half of Bulgaria country and to see new landscapes for inspiration.

My feelings of pride for 2022 are: strengthened bonds with my few true friends, achieved my dream to become a Zumba instructor, finished my Poetry book “Mori Monologues,” and got serious with my blog.

When it comes to love, I feel grateful I got the chance to meet with five amazing men that year and understand better how the male mind works. Romances are not on my life’s plate because of my challenging character, but my loyal emotions toward my friends and daughter are eternal. That’s indeed a great motivation to live better and more focused.

I indeed feel lonely without a partner sometimes but is better this way if there are no mutual feelings. Pain is less. I should protect my heart to stay strong for my daughter.

In Bulgaria, between Christmas and New Year’s Eve are many holidays. I have enough time to revise my past 2022 experiences, lessons, and emotions. These revisions are my base to create from a scratch 2023 plan. For my three main goals, I need serious discipline and focus, which is achievable. No more emotional matters distract me.

Discipline for every life’s field is a must. Some call it prioritizing, while others focus on one thing at a time.  Both cases speak loud and clear that if there are no steps toward a matter, there is no success.

Some time ago, I thought the action plan for everything should be detailed. Devils in the details, after all. The action plan can be almost perfect, but it’s good for the steps toward a goal to be flexible and general. Outside factors can not be predicted 100 % and fast adaption is always welcomed.

A Thought about channeling my energy toward my most important life fields.

Based on my tries and mistakes, I figured out the important matters for me now. They are career, weight loss, and mind’s peace. Because of my daily work stress and short deadlines, I became uninspired to do anything. That led me to the conclusion to leave my current job as soon as possible because my health worsens every day there. My mind is open and positive for the new opportunities my friends gave me.

My feeling of pride is helping my best friend to organize a concert of Alexander Rybak in my current city, and I feel inspired to try something new.

In that way of thinking, I believe that opportunities are everywhere, and people should learn to see them. Currently, my lessons follow one after another on daily basis. Another example of opportunity is connected with another of my best friends who will invite me to a project in February.

The good things that happen around me are present because I channeled my energy into professional development. The positive thoughts about my desired career are rooted in my mind. For that to happen, I sacrificed every single thought for romance. When people win and achieve something, they lose something else. That is called equilibrium.

For good or worse, now I am where I am – single-focused on my career. It was proved to me, love is not my current suit. But that is okay because my important things seem different from a romance, and I am not into it anymore. At first, my amazement was big to find out that truth, but it’s how life happens.

Based on my experience, when the energy is not channeled at the right moment situations, personal losses are too many. For me, they were my health, bankruptcy, and nervous breakout. The lack of inspiration I met recently, was because my head stood in illusionary people’s perceptions. That is not a mistake, but a good lesson that made me revise my thoughts and feelings.

It may sound weird, but I found out that the emotions I always had and dive into, lead me to dysfunctional actions. Maybe it would be worth it if they were mutual. 

In my current situation, romantic feelings make me a clown who only entertains males.

It’s always challenging to let someone go, and it hurts, but in the long-term losing, everything seems no good. The price to channel the energy into the wrong people and careers is way too high. Risk and knowing the cause is lost but going for it,  are different things.

Proper investment of energy into New Year’s actions is a must. There is a saying that things come at the right time and place for people. So my time for many things is not now. It seems I have too much work on my personal development.

And do you think for your personal development?
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