Some Closures Are Unexpected And Other – Fated
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Sometimes the closures come unexpectedly. It’s valid both for relationships, friendships, business partnerships, and people in general.
Yesterday the sister of a man I loved one-sided died in his arms. As a friend, I acted like one and called to show emotional support despite the circumstances between us. It’s my nature to act humanely and tolerant even to those who treated me no good. That is my vulnerability and I am not afraid to share it anymore.
It was a clear sign our fated closure with him became a fact.
My intuition always told me is not my place in his world, among his close friends in another town, and life in general. He tried to tell me that many times and I felt it but I thought is only based on my negative mindset back then. It wasn’t. I should listen better to my intuition and now know my freedom to go on a different life path than him is an opened window.
As an enamored woman and loyal friend, my first questions were: “Should I come to you? Do you want me to be there?” and his reply cut: “No need to drive so many hours” – the emotion was deep and his sadness too, but between the lines I read clearly: “Leave me alone” and I did.
I always knew we end up like that but tried to play it cool to the last breath of that relationship. “Look, you can always count on me for everything and whenever you decide, call me at least to listen to you,” and his final words: “Thank you. I call you sometime,” but that moment will not come. It’s pretty well known when a man or woman says sometimes means sounding “No” or “Never.”
However, his younger sister’s death was unexpected and sad but somehow known because she was very sick.
The only thing I could do for that man yesterday was to pray for him and his sister. I believe she is in a better place and always will watch over him. I sent my positive and new-found powerful energy into space to support my loved one last time. My hope is it did reach him.
And what I started to do after finally understanding once again some love is not meant to be?
My talent once was drawing with colored pencils. It was asleep for the last twenty years. Yesterday was the day to wake up my colorful thinking and self-indulging in the drawing. Today I found myself heading back to my once-lost and forgotten dream to paint abstract flowers.
It’s weird, right?
I do not mind anymore what other people think. Between the closures with people in my life, I have reborn my authentic self and the long-forgotten joys of life. Starting today, I will draw with my colored pencils and thoughts, showing my daughter what is to enjoy a life that is found in little things.
Even if I am not like Frida Khalo, my energy is high and oriented to my woken-up ability. It’s the only way to survive in a world where people step over others’ feelings and do not care much for someone outside themselves. I draw and will show the meaning of small joys to everyone who dares to read outside the lines of pathetic, framed, and materialistic thinking.
It’s fact people are different, but that most are conformists is also a proven truth.
Closures between them are known to happen by personal intuition since the first time both people meet. The trap is that one believes things will change because he wants to, but the heart knows best. When there is no immediate attraction on a deeper level, every kind of relationship will fall apart with time.
The sad truth about unexpected closures is people are not prepared to grieve a lost lover, family member, or failed job plan. But it’s meant to happen for a person to grow and find their true purpose while becoming better for themselves. Like I did with find finding again my will to draw.
On the other side, fated closures are born from personal uncertainty and low self-esteem from past situations that are not healed or fears which are not faced. My fears were my outlook and weird creative personality acceptance. There was a sincere disinterest toward me by my family members and unrequited lovers in the past. It took me a lot of time, tears, and projected drama to overcome them all. It was also my temper most of the time but I succeed in learning from the closures I received.
For example, the men I met in my life became better persons, even over my broken heart.
My happiness lies in the fact I supported and inspired them. It’s always a good feeling when helping someone and lifting him. The closure with them was fated and I knew it from the first time I met them but didn’t listen to my intuition. I wanted to feel more than what could be given by these males for me.
Knowing that all along is pitiful, but people love to think they have found the best business partner, friend, or date. The duality essence lies in the human mind and heart every time. It’s a form of magical art for logic and romance to be on the same page. The same goes for two people to do the same. Don’t you think?
P.S. – I will write twice per week – on Wednesday and Sunday. The featured picture of the post is my drawing.