Hollywood Hills Or The Great Ocean’s Waves?

About Life Choices.

Recently I listen to one of my favorite songs. It’s “Holywood Hills” by Sunrise Avenue. That song’s lyrics gave me a reason to think and create another confession.

Everybody knows about Hollywood Hills Dream. Not many people understand the price of staying there and that they’re somehow limited in their lives. I have never been a resident of a rich neighborhood and maybe will not be. But, after reading about many famous people, my idea about Hollywood’s life summarizes loneliness. Pure and unknown for ordinary people because in Holywood nobody stays with a person for himself.

The idea of the “Hollywood Hills” song is about choices.

To stay in the rich neighborhood under the radar of everyone and the lack of privacy, or live an ordinary life, doing what the heart desires?

Becoming a famous person has a price and it’s not for everyone. Surely, materialistic and consumer life in every area is interesting.

Will that be forever?

I am not sure about it. The reason for my love for “Holywood Hills” is that I have been on both sides of life – rich and poor. While living in my hometown years ago, my family was wealthy. And still, it is, but I am not there.

When I moved to Burgas for love toward my ex-boyfriend and the sea fifteen years ago, my knowledge of poverty grew rapidly, looking at the great ocean’s waves of my new life.

It was not the pretty picture my mind painted. The daily fight with bills and life matters, in general, started immediately. I learned to organize better and to create a budget. Many things I didn’t even know while living under the gold parental wing showed up. Everything was unknown to me since I lived in a golden cage.

Listening to the “Hollywood Hills” song gives me chills. It shows the internal fight to continue living as there is no tomorrow with the dirtiness and limitations of a materialistic world or going free when no money is a motivator, but the internal fire to achieve goals.

Heart’s freedom is not an easy choice. Many sacrifices are required to follow a fast heartbeat but that state is the closest to happiness.

The great ocean’s waves are in the context of living alone.

Being alone means freedom to follow individual dreams without brainwashing models of life which can be easily found in places like Holywood Hills. To stay there someone should lose identity and follow the rules of popularity. They are harsh and isolating.

Living a rich life has two cons: falseness and loneliness. The pros are money and pleasure.

When people have enough material things, they start to feel suffocating and bored because they literally can buy everything, including “friends”. But, the companions stay by the person’s side until they are under the spotlight. When they got sick, they have caretakers because there are no close-to-heart people to care for them. They never feel sincere human contact for free.

On the other side, living a free life has sincerity from a small group of people has a positive side, but the negative is sometimes feeling shallow and trapped in the mundane. But that shall pass.

The true expression of feelings through the things people love to do can’t be experienced with no money in the world. It’s a fact wealth is important, but when there is freedom of living, that stays on life’s backseat.

My belief is people should live outside any limitations that society and money put on them forcefully and they choose it for free sometimes. That is why I love the “Holywood Hills” song so much.

The Right Time Is Usually Unplanned

Last year I went through many breakups with people I loved. To avoid the depression, I started to get too busy, deciding to participate in international writing competitions in English.

It has been always my dream to enter that kind of contest. I made the first step forward because I knew that leads to a better life.

When I was younger, I joined poetry competitions in my native language but did not win them.

Later I found my poetry quotes on a specific Bulgarian Poetry forum and was happy that my writings were given as an example. That motivated me to continue writing poems in general.

I published online long ago Poetry on my native language and decided to make a blog for my rhymes on Blogger.

Unfortunately, my website needed too much promotion to be recognized.

Right said I am too lazy to share my work in Bulgarian on Social media because Bulgarians, in general, do not like to read Poetry or anything else outside gossip. I do not feel it is right to force my posts into people’s eyes and believe that if someone likes you, they will read without reminders.

Since then, I have kept writing for the art of writing.

My close-to-heart people always were against my creative writing because is “not stable economically.” That made me write in a different language – English.

I have been writing in English since I gave birth to my daughter in 2014 and dedicated my first poetry book to her. After I started to write seriously in English, I participated in Writer’s digest Wednesday’s Poetry challenges.

That way, when the child slept, in thirty weeks, I had another Poetry book. I also published it on Amazon. But, I never used social media for its promotion.

Last year, after many challenging situations in my life, I rediscovered my writing muse and made the first step forward.

From the contests I participated in, only two judges gave me feedback — they liked my story and poem, but they said my works were not “Yes” material. I haven’t been chosen as the finalist, but that never discouraged me.

Every poem, or short story I created for competitions I participated in until now, is a base for my next book. It’s also a win in my eyes.

I think people need to work more to succeed as a writer — the same way I do.

I joined every month between two to four writing contests with one poem or one story until September. Then I stopped because of my hundred failures. I believe that 100 is equal to 1, which regarding Numerology is the leadership change number. I started to work on my Poetry book, which will contain every rejected work I wrote plus some newer works, around 120 poems.

After all, personal and professional life needs serious planning, acting, and not wishful thinking. Without a plan, everything is just a daydream.

So, people, start working for your goals as a writer and person with the appropriate schedule.

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