Perfumes Have Rock’s Souls

Rock's Souls

Perfumes Have Rock’s Souls


Dedicated to innovative people

I like specific, unique, unpopular, inspiring, and heavy perfumes to wear on myself. The same goes for the people who are involved with me. Rock’s souls are those who dare to keep going against all odds, which builds serious respect in me toward them.

Sitting at my home while I drink coffee before going on a long road to my hometown, I smelled my favorite aromas “Al Ghadeer” by Nabeel Perfumes, and  Arabian’s Secrets “Habibi.”

Wondering which one to choose, I remembered the movie that inspired me to write today – “Perfume: The Story Of A Murderer.”

Perfumes are authentic.

The same goes for some people’s souls, but most humans choose to stay in a crowd because it’s safer.  Safety is a high question, especially when citizens are living alone, counting only on themselves. Waiting for the numerous day to pass, people lose pieces of their souls when doing nothing for their dreams. Not everyone is like that, but it’s rare to see someone going after his goals with full force. The people’s traces are identified in their perfumes, combined with hormones. Authenticity is like the original aroma that someone dares to share.

The “Perfume: The Story of A Murderer” movie is one of the greatest teachers of perfection nowadays. It’s an undeniable fact the film is dark, grotesque, and inhuman. Since I like to dig into reasons someone is doing or not doing anything, I want to understand better the murderer’s psychology. 

Many people search the Perfection in every form. They go mad for finding it and see as they want, stepping over others, and doing terrible things in the name of a perfect thing. That is not understandable by the crowds. The seekers are claimed by society as maniacs, weird, psychopaths, or intimidating. My belief is that trend will not fade away anytime soon, but I dare to say every human today is born as a hunter, looking for its prey. There is a good song that explains naturality today by Imagine Dragons. I do not think that being natural is the same as being original.

Why not the perfumer finds his perfect creation too?

The main character in the movie is a man obsessed with doing his best perfume. That person was thought by his mentor well but wanted to improve, showing the world he is the best perfumer ever. He took a person’s uniqueness by bottling it forever. Once the human body dies, the authenticity is gone because there is no soul and beating heart inside to create it.

Metaphorically speaking, the perfumer made the dead women forever alive, because he took their living essences. The way sure it’s inhuman, but the higher purpose is also there with the reason for the murder.

Many theories explain life after death, but they do not change the fact of inevitability.  But there are reasons why perfumer collects women’s souls since he never been loved truly by someone. The reasons for the killing in the name of perfection are obsession, jealousy, and the amiss of a true person’s affection.


When people fall in love with someone, they become obsessive without even seeing it. The same goes when humans are enamored with perfection. It’s a sad fact that love and war are no rules which make people mad for achieving something – obtaining their lover’s body or doing things perfectly despite everything, including murdering another person. That obsessive behavior becomes the norm for the person and he goes even deeper in searching his ways to obtain the body or perfection. To judge is good, but only judgment will not save the future display of the same madness over again. Clear reasoning is needed to cut the darkness in every human’s soul roots.

Once the reason is understood and accepted by the person himself. With that knowledge, things start to become better, because it’s the survival law that every problem has a solution. It’s in human nature to resolve a situation – it could be avoided or taken care of. There is no other choice.


I often mistake Jealousy for Envy. The first is felt for loved persons because they share their time with others.  The second is connected to famous people that have a great life. The reactions of ordinary citizens, who didn’t dare to move out of their comfort zone, are usually weird. Both  Jealousy and Envy are destructive, they fuel human aggression.

Romantic jealousy is transforming people into stalkers, and if the object of their affection doesn’t give them what they want, they humiliate or even murder him.  in their heads, the person is doing wrong by not letting them inside their hearts.

Popularity envy makes people look bad and far from themselves by coping with the style of their idols.

Jealousy can be seen as a defense mechanism for people to not stay alone at all costs. It’s another product of today’s carelessness.  The human fears of sadness and loneliness are the main providers of the negative emotion I talked about above. I believe it can be controlled if the person understands that being jealous is not the key to love or fame.

The Amiss Of True Person’s Affection

I believe that is the reason the perfumer started to murder people. That is his proof he is the best of himself, accepting his lack of human attitude. As far as the movie story goes, I can sense the bond he built up with his mentor is the only form of the human attitude he felt ever. When people aren’t loved or showed affection at a young age, they become numb and cut off their relationships. When human interaction is amiss, humans start to do weird things to fill the void of unlived feelings.

The idleness may show itself in various shapes like a fetish for something, trying to breathe life in non-living objects like plush toys, or abuse of different animals or insects. Sometimes, the cruelty of actions points at other human beings, creating false self-affirmation the thing that is done is for good. In that case, the perfumer blurred the line between cruel genius, perfect combination, and human connection.

Many people today do the same, but the tools are changed to cover inhuman activities and you know what I mean.

Rock’s Souls

Under that phrase  I mean two things: rock music lovers and souls that have been shattered so many times that their tears became a healing light.

Both types are similar in that they choose their freedom. It considers others’ opinions, solitude in their lives, following their dreams, and a bit of rebellion to save their hearts. That way is challenging to be living because it’s lonely.

However, rebels are geniuses in disguise and they are the true humanity leaders that show there is another way out of the crowd.

Hate, Envy, Jealousy, and Obsession are their shadows, though.

Rock’s souls have a unique perfume that even the best murderer couldn’t bottle up because rock’s souls leave traces while they’re alive both in mind and body outside the mass. The rock’s soul tracks are engraved in other human hearts, waking up fear of the unknown. Psychologically speaking, that dread is the strongest one.

That week I went to Rock Circus for the first time in my life. It was something I never imagined I will experience in my life. Rock clothes, music, atmosphere, and the unique show made me feel grateful I am alive. My admiration and respect for every single artist in that show is undeniable.

The things that impressed me in the spectacle were the trust between partners in the show and the emotions I could feel when looking at them doing their acts. It’s outside the casual human’s mistrust and using someone’s interest attitude.

As a rock music lover, I enjoyed the show and remembered every second of it. Most of the guests sitting in the circus were there with no open hearts to accept what they saw by their choice. For me, every fiber of my body felt every single move and emotion of the artist. I sang while listening to some of my favorite rock evergreens and truly felt happy I am there. Usually, I am not into singing :).

Artist’s job is to make people feel. It doesn’t matter the creator’s occupation as long as there is a trace left in another person’s heart.

New ideas are mostly unwelcome, but I believe the Rock Circus originators felt supported by their show guests. That made them happy and I saw it in their eyes. It’s hard for me to explain with words the feelings I got from that spectacle even with my good writing skills. The show should be lived and felt. I highly recommend it even if it made me sleepless all night from the euphoria.

Innovative people, in general, are rejected by others or made feel like they are nobody in the name of money or fame. It’s wrong to make someone feel unworthy because of reputation. I believe every human is equal and should be accepted for his uniqueness if they choose to be genuine.

Rock’s souls looked as those who enlight others

I fit in that category well, because in my life before turning forty, it came a time when I do not need anyone by my side to make me feel whole. It’s an uncomfortable feeling because its creation was birthed by many rejections and failures in every life’s areas. My recent rejection was today, romantically. I never expect anything anymore and feel gratitude because now I am one idea freer to live.

Every tear that dropped from my eyes turned to light, and I want to share my experiences in many situations to support emotionally and virtually those, who are at their life’s crossroads.

My saying is that people are not alone as they think because there is always someone out there, in virtual reality, who has gone through the same endeavors.

For today, I finish my confession and want to share a video from the Rock Circus. Visiting it again is another of my goals already.

I love Guns’ and Roses “Knocking on Heaven’s Door” song. When I watched the spectacle and the artist’s act, I cried from happiness and a bit of sadness in that song. It’s not shameful to cry on music, films, or books, remember.  I do it and feel that my heart is still beating.







Knee’s Pain Is Like A Reminder

Knee Pain is like a reminder

Knee’s Pain Is Like A Reminder

That Is Needed Because Sometimes people forget to check their realities.

Last week, my knee pain problem started because I walk around 20 000 steps daily and lead Zumba classes. Probably, my leg was too tired. There is always a thin line between mania and doing something moderately to success slow and steady.

Unfortunately, I blur that line too often because of my passion for doing everything I love as much as possible, leading to reminders like the one with my knee.

Balance is a significant factor in successful personal and professional life, but it is challenging to achieve. I continuously learn to find equilibrium in my life.

When I understand how, I will share my knowledge, for sure. That will be my Secret to a good living. 🙂

While listening to my favorite blues writing music, my knee reminds me I am moving way too fast forward, and not many people can keep up with me. I am unsure if that is for good or worse, but I keep walking with a happy smile for waking up daily to write and dance.

I believe it’s worth feeling positive each beautiful morning while I drink my coffee on the terrace. Don’t you think?

Tomorrow will be another great day because eight years ago, I gave birth to my daughter, who changed my whole life for the better.  Many people do not want children, saying it’s not worth it for innocent souls to live in that cruel world.

But for me, more children are needed to teach and remind adults how to live to the fullest with joy.

I may sound harsh, but people who don’t want children are running away from responsibility and themselves. They can hate me as much as they want because everyone makes their choices. I plan to have more children in the future, one way or another.

The only true love is between a parent and child.

Now, let’s go back to the knee problem, which is the cause of the blog post, but I got distracted by my fast-flowing thoughts.

Training or running too much brings both pleasure and tiredness. The same goes when people do their work passionately and forget to take breaks for long periods. Outside stopping or initializing movement through life is present in every moment of human lives. The energy between work and relaxation should be equal because otherwise, the person becomes like an empty glass without the will to move on.

What did Knee pain teach me?

I felt sad I couldn’t dance and realized that the old patterns in relationships, or health habits, will never lead to new, interesting, and productive creations. I learned for myself that changing my diet will help me improve for Zumba classes. It is good the Zumba founders sent me a special Nutrition webinar to watch. I am amazed how these people give me every tool to succeed in my Zumba instructor future. In my country, employers are not like that.

Another important lesson from my knee pain was letting go of my self-built limitations to stay wherever is not my place.

Speaking of that, I decided when exactly I will quit my full-time job because of its low-income stability. After all, I feel like a prisoner. Since I am a bit fearful because I have not found another job yet, I am sure of my survival, even without the eight working hours somewhere I feel unfit.

That robs me of my freedom, social contacts, pursuing my passions, and other chances to succeed.  I want to soar through life, not be a low-level government employee without identity.

Another reason for my decision is that it’s more expensive to work in an office than to work from home. It takes my half salary to go to work, eat, drink coffee, and waste time traveling. Outside that, the nerves I spend there are not worth it and are not appreciated.

The most important lesson from my knee pain was to make a realistic plan, based on my skills and finances. They are not in great shape now, but I know I can do better. People should believe in themselves even if nobody else does.

If there is someone else that believes in you, keep them close.

Another topic, related to the knee pain I had, was the heartache I felt for a long time, but not anymore, thanks to my last week’s introspection. While my knee healed slowly, my soul did too. I broke up many hurtful relationships with forgiveness. It was not easy, but I decided to become a kinder version of myself, and that could happen only when let go. Letting go with respect, and keeping the good memories it’s far better than doing it with hate or ignorance. It is like karmic liberation that fills my heart with good feelings – they fuel me to keep going toward my dreams.

Things in life are simple indeed: Whatever happened, happened, and what is meant to be, will not change between time and space.

Like a reminder

In daily life, people forget about themselves in general. They forget to relax and start to flow with routines or schedules. Inevitably, that leads to self-doubt and not good feelings. It’s important to have personal time even only for thirty minutes daily. Sicknesses and physical pains are a reminder something is wrong and should be paid attention to. It was my case with the knee and now I will be more careful doing my choreography. The mind’s state also gives the motivation to do something. There should be always peace between heart and mind, otherwise, people become moody and unhappy. That is not good for friends, lovers, children, and productivity.

Relaxing should be done at least one full day every week.

Thank you again for reading me.


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