Channeling The Energy Is A Challenge

Channeling the Energy is A Challenge

Channeling The Energy Is A Challenge

That Should Be Done Properly Because The Personal Losses Are Huge

The 2022 end is near. It’s understandable people make yearly resolutions, even if they do not want to do it. As for me, that year was a good one in terms of professional and personal development. Outside my unsuccessful love and financial affairs, I had great memories in Dubai, and with my daughter. For material things, I bought a new car in May. That purchase helped me to travel to half of Bulgaria country and to see new landscapes for inspiration.

My feelings of pride for 2022 are: strengthened bonds with my few true friends, achieved my dream to become a Zumba instructor, finished my Poetry book “Mori Monologues,” and got serious with my blog.

When it comes to love, I feel grateful I got the chance to meet with five amazing men that year and understand better how the male mind works. Romances are not on my life’s plate because of my challenging character, but my loyal emotions toward my friends and daughter are eternal. That’s indeed a great motivation to live better and more focused.

I indeed feel lonely without a partner sometimes but is better this way if there are no mutual feelings. Pain is less. I should protect my heart to stay strong for my daughter.

In Bulgaria, between Christmas and New Year’s Eve are many holidays. I have enough time to revise my past 2022 experiences, lessons, and emotions. These revisions are my base to create from a scratch 2023 plan. For my three main goals, I need serious discipline and focus, which is achievable. No more emotional matters distract me.

Discipline for every life’s field is a must. Some call it prioritizing, while others focus on one thing at a time.  Both cases speak loud and clear that if there are no steps toward a matter, there is no success.

Some time ago, I thought the action plan for everything should be detailed. Devils in the details, after all. The action plan can be almost perfect, but it’s good for the steps toward a goal to be flexible and general. Outside factors can not be predicted 100 % and fast adaption is always welcomed.

A Thought about channeling my energy toward my most important life fields.

Based on my tries and mistakes, I figured out the important matters for me now. They are career, weight loss, and mind’s peace. Because of my daily work stress and short deadlines, I became uninspired to do anything. That led me to the conclusion to leave my current job as soon as possible because my health worsens every day there. My mind is open and positive for the new opportunities my friends gave me.

My feeling of pride is helping my best friend to organize a concert of Alexander Rybak in my current city, and I feel inspired to try something new.

In that way of thinking, I believe that opportunities are everywhere, and people should learn to see them. Currently, my lessons follow one after another on daily basis. Another example of opportunity is connected with another of my best friends who will invite me to a project in February.

The good things that happen around me are present because I channeled my energy into professional development. The positive thoughts about my desired career are rooted in my mind. For that to happen, I sacrificed every single thought for romance. When people win and achieve something, they lose something else. That is called equilibrium.

For good or worse, now I am where I am – single-focused on my career. It was proved to me, love is not my current suit. But that is okay because my important things seem different from a romance, and I am not into it anymore. At first, my amazement was big to find out that truth, but it’s how life happens.

Based on my experience, when the energy is not channeled at the right moment situations, personal losses are too many. For me, they were my health, bankruptcy, and nervous breakout. The lack of inspiration I met recently, was because my head stood in illusionary people’s perceptions. That is not a mistake, but a good lesson that made me revise my thoughts and feelings.

It may sound weird, but I found out that the emotions I always had and dive into, lead me to dysfunctional actions. Maybe it would be worth it if they were mutual. 

In my current situation, romantic feelings make me a clown who only entertains males.

It’s always challenging to let someone go, and it hurts, but in the long-term losing, everything seems no good. The price to channel the energy into the wrong people and careers is way too high. Risk and knowing the cause is lost but going for it,  are different things.

Proper investment of energy into New Year’s actions is a must. There is a saying that things come at the right time and place for people. So my time for many things is not now. It seems I have too much work on my personal development.

And do you think for your personal development?

The Answers Are In The Skies

Answers Are in the skies

The Answers Are In The Skies


To Those Who Gave Up The Fight For Life.

Today’s confession will be harsh. I am not religious, and this post is not about the holy threesome or something. It’s inspired by Megadeath’s song “Foreclosure Of A Dream,” because it applies to my situation.

It has been a while since I struggled financially. The fight started in August. At the beginning of December, I went officially bankrupt. Depression tried to crawl into my daily life, but I persecuted it.

In my style, I drank wine on my own the night I found out about my official bankruptcy. Sharing my problems is not my strong suit. Avoiding the situation also didn’t help me. Through the emotional whirlwind in my personal life, apathy overwhelmed me.

I stood in a zombie-like shape for a few days because of the shock I experienced. It was a reminder of a similar situation ten years ago.

Many fronts broke me inside –  romantic loss in my life,  my child’s school problems, and the financial crisis. But, hey, I survived! The realization of my deep drowning woke me up from a  life’s dream. I started to build myself from the scratch again. So, here I go, sharing my experience with everyone who finds themselves here.

What did I do in that wrecking situation?

Listening to music certainly helped me, and doing puzzles too. But still, the simple rules I wrote down for my future money situation are: never owning to bank anything, saving 20% of my every income, and writing notes for the spent money. That creates the financial picture. Outside it, I use schedules for everything – from home-cooked meals to grocery shopping, and have reminders daily to reduce the workload in every life field. My head ran wild when I saw exactly how many responsibilities wait for my intervention.

The Answers Are In The Skies of personal activity, but not in religious awaiting for Universe’s plan. I also find out why I am still single, living my unfulfilled life. Action is the change key to everything. It should start sooner for everyone.

The situation made me inspired to do better. I wrote my new action plan, reorganized my priorities, and started to achieve more in my daily life. Thanks to the harsh financial realization, I became a new person without many feelings. Currently, they are in my life’s backseat since I share my finances and life with no one outside my child. That may change or not, but it doesn’t matter. My will is to improve myself financially and never be in a bankrupt situation again. Sacrificing my lack of financial culture doesn’t look good for me or my child’s future. The steps I took, I should do a long time ago. But it’s better later than never.

By the way, Robert Kiyosaki’s “Rich Dad, Poor Dad”‘ book is a great reading choice for lonely Christmas evenings. Tears do not secure the financial future, but they’re needed to ease the emotional pain. People should improve themselves daily in every way they can and know. I know that sounds cold, but after all the pain, I started to think differently. Romance and sex are good, but they will not save me when a financial crisis strikes. As a solo player in my life, I need to provide everything for my child.

The recent financial situation motivated me to do everything possible to find a way out of the poverty circle without losing my dignity. Going back somewhere I don’t belong is not on my life’s or emotion’s plates. Many people go for the comfort, love, or money of others and that’s a huge mistake. Standing on one own two feet is never easy and often leads to various breakthroughs, but in the end, is about the soul’s survival. I am grateful for my bankruptcy because it sped up many plans I put aside because running like a mouse in a daily rut.

The same goes for my love life – the financial crisis woke me up from the “Fairytale has gone bad” romances I had the last few years.  Almost nobody saves no one if there is no mutual love, respect, and business. But there are still good people even if they’re rare.

In that way of thinking, I stand up in the middle of my messes, go to the next job interview, and dance through life with a high chin.

P.S.: I will post two times per week – Wednesday and Friday. That will be until I resolve the problems around me. I have many ideas to improve the blog. There is a lot to unfold.

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