The Best Poem I wrote for my latest breakup back in November 2021 with the true love of my life.
At least, in my opinion.
I drove to the beach,
Meeting the sand stories
That waves washed away
Like my own memories
One step on the left, the other on the right
Sadness walked into my mind
I wonder again how I survived
The pain inside and the sorrow
He made me a whole
Now nothing at all
Tossing my feeling
Under the dome
Stepping in water
I saw jellyfish
I stumbled on the stone
Creating plain wish
Only to be loved
Sand smiled at me
My steps didn’t exist
They were covered
Some people wait for true love, while others experience it as one-sided emotion. I believe it is better to experience that unmatched, uncomfortable, and consuming feeling than to run away from it. True love can’t be mistaken, because that connection is on many levels and almost instant between two souls that have met before. Both characters complement each other.
Based on my experience, true love is unrequited. It breaks a person’s heart into pieces to rebuild it and the person to become better.
Future life situations might change my mind, but for now, that is my belief. I never use theories without experiencing them on my back. It would be fake information, and I want to stay authentic to my few unbreakable principles.
Looking back in time, I improved a lot since I was torn inside out and re-found myself. Thanks to my broken heart, I understand human emotions and psychology better. Learning to forgive wrongdoing brings the mind freedom because it releases the painful chains.
When the pain is too much, many people are trapped in their fears and close their hearts which brings no good in life or business.
That is my most popular Poem on Medium.com. That platform is good to popularize content among writers, and It built my poet’s reputation, inspiring many other artists.
That question always made me wonder. It is of great significance for men and women. Relationships between people are complicated.
When we speak about love relationships, especially unrequited, feelings the situation becomes more complex.
“Why not me?” is always the first question when we see we fall for someone who is cold and distant toward us or gives mixed signals.
Since I have rich experience in overthinking the “Why not me?” question because my unrequited loves are a crowd, I will try to answer it sincerely. It may help all who take the time to read what I have written, and they can find themselves in my words. The bright side of one-sided love is that every time a person gets rejected, that becomes expected, and it doesn’t hurt too much.
Sometimes it is funny how people that reject you try to play innocent.
They show they are worried, but indeed they are not. Of all rejecting lines, the most popular is “I see you as a friend” or “I do not love you as more than a friend”.
Both sentences are hypocritical because why do people flirt with just a friend?
They should say they do not like you, hurt others hard, and make them move on with their dignity and honor. People need to walk away gracefully from those who cause them pain. The friendship story’s crap people tell because of politeness.
But that politeness will not save a person’s heart from breaking. There is a big difference between friendship and love, in my opinion. Friends can become lovers, but lovers back to friends rarely. In the case of rejection of a friend in the first stages of falling in love, it is possible to become a strong friendship after some time apart, when the rejected person heals.
The pain of rejection is intoxicating and a wake-up call.
There is a pearl of old wisdom “What doesn’t kill you, make you stronger” – and it is just like that. As soon as people walk away from the unrequited love, they become persons with a stronger mentality. I know it is hard to let go of someone who liked or loved deeply, but the ties with the one-sided love should cut at least for a while until the mind and heart calm down.
After all, at the end of life, people have only themselves. Throughout the life journey, the persons should be the best version of themselves toward other humans and living beings. Giving as much kindness as people should not be for the price of self-sacrifice. After all, self-worth attracts love and understanding.
Now, let’s see the “Why not me?” question’s reasons:
Not ready for a relationship;
Not over the ex-lover or loving someone else;
Lack of will to deal with another’s personal feelings;
Not being ready for a relationship;
In today’s life, that situation is the most common reason to not step into a relationship. Many people are obsessed with their work and problems with their parents or siblings. Or they do not want to have a relationship at the current moment in their lives. That is perfectly fine because when people have no peace of mind or clear vision of what they want, a relationship may make them more uncertain. A forced relationship just because to be in a relationship is a bad idea.
Currently, I do not need a relationship too. Many people should first collect themselves from the past wounds and build their new hearts home because the purity of heart is all we have.
For the heart to be pure, people need to build walls first for a while to understand better what they want from themselves, their lives, and their eventual partner.
When people are not ready to jump into a relationship, they should control their lust for doing the jump because if they don’t, their hearts will be more broken than before. I say it from experience.
Last year, I went straight away from one relationship to another, and I ended up so broken on a deep level that I hardly can heal, but time takes care of me. I wish no one my experience, so I gladly share my piece of wisdom. When people are not ready to give something valuable in their eventual relationship, they should stay single until their heads clear up.
A relationship is giving, and inspiring the partner, not whining, and blaming the universe. My case now is similar because I finally found my “Why not me?” question’s answer. I can’t give any man that flirts or speaks with me what he deserves for a love relationship.
The reason is that I have more serious work to make myself a whole than to project my disappointment and drama on other people.
I keep myself emotionally unavailable until the time I find myself. That is why I block almost all communication with potential baes in the beginning. I am not proud of this, but it is the best solution for participants in the flirt game because if things go deep, I can’t jump into a serious relationship now, after so many breakups. I do not want to give empty promises or unrealistic hopes.
Another example I can give of not being ready for a relationship is from one of my male friends. He is quite ambitious about his work, and he sees the eventual relationship as a distraction in his work field. That is the reason why he looks only for physical contact with women, but after some adventures, he said to me he doesn’t want to make women pregnant and stays solo until he is ready to commit.
Many people are like me, and him at the moment. In that situation, my opinion is it’s better to not talk about any prospect of a love relationship, and not even think about it if people are not ready to open themselves to others.
When a person is not ready for a relationship in his heart and mind, it’s a high possibility of heartbreak.
Of course, if someone is too brave and patient to break the heart’s walls, meeting the worst behind them, the love magic can happen. But that is almost an unrealistic tale.
Many people do not go into a relationship because they are not over their ex-partner or love someone else.
Unrequited love sometimes happens because people do not listen to their inner voices but to others. It doesn’t matter if the others are family, friends, or elders. The pain of one-sided love makes people grow up and upgrade their emotional intelligence level.
Only when they are emotionally stable, comprehensible in their heads, and accept their intuition, does a relationship blossom. Even so, fear of the “Why not me?” question is normal these days, and it is a must for a person to mature.
There is a saying that a broken heart gives the best life lessons.
That is the truth because, without these life lessons, people stay like babies that do not know how to take steps, and always will need someone to guide them. For the perfect relationship, a person should be imperfect but whole.