Fitting In – Triolet Poem

Dedicated to relationship uncertainty and status quo.

These fitting-in situations should be cleared as soon as possible.

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Where do I fit in your living?

I started my mind cleaning.

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Do I enter into your life or do I leave it?

I may physically cut it for a mental reason.

There are shaping forms to fit in.

Where do I fit in your living?

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Triolet poems always give clarity in every situation. But the purpose of “Fitting in” is a wake-up call from a questionable relationship dynamic. Many people do not explain themselves to their new partners.

Actions speak louder than words when it comes to fitting in someone’s life.

Based on my experience, I haven’t felt a part of my questionable partners. My curiosity points to “Are we even a couple without talking it out?” and the reply is a sound “No.”

The human brain always plays tricks when there is a matter of the heart. Questions like “Oh, does he has a lot of work to not call me?” for weeks or “Does he ever think of me?” for a month, and “What are we?” always roam through the mind of the involved person. It’s called the status quo. The interesting here is many people try to lie and use their self-beliefs against themselves. They think that someone is busy with his life and for that reason can’t find time to call or text.

The situation of fitting into someone’s life gives a clear answer to the status quo.

It takes time for someone to start liking another person and know where they stand. In most cases, after the first three dates make things clear. There is an old saying that when a man can live without a woman for a day, he can do it for life. Today people are liberated and allow a man or a woman to live without contacting them for weeks, and even months or years, thinking “He loves me but is busy.”

If someone is too busy in the first place, and cannot fit into others’ lives, why they even started to communicate without finishing it?

I believe it’s better to not start anything without the idea of wrapping it. It’s like a martyr’s game. Yes, it’s painful to let go and watch how something beautiful fades away, but it’s better to draw a line if there will be only knowing someone briefly or going deeper with them.

Like an ex-martyr whom I liked to play a lot, now I stand strictly on my two feet. My brokenness was so much I couldn’t even stop thinking about staying single and made delusions for a man who doesn’t even find the time to text or it was uncomfortable to speak on the phone with me in his friend’s presence. They will say he is a man under a slipper.

So What?

Every man becomes under slipper after many years of family life and women become home-wives in one way or another. That shouldn’t look like a claim, it’s a fact. On the other side, many people do not want to commit to not losing their faces or egos.

Fitting in other people’s lives.

In every relationship is good to check signs if both partners are making efforts to fit into each other lives. At first, small steps, then gradually to leaps if they are worth it. Being objective in a relationship dynamic is always a must and there is no need for self-pity or creating a delusional idea for someone. Activities together and conversations about shared futures show that people are involved in each other’s lives and want to be together without avoiding contact.

There is no need for forced fitting into someone’s life. Listen to your hearts.

Tired Of Delusions – Triolet Poem

Dedicated to Illusionary Lovers

I’m tired of delusions.

They lead me nowhere.

I have been unloved in inclusion.

I’m tired of delusions

And made myself an exclusion.

There is no love out there.

I’m tired of delusions.

They lead me nowhere.

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I found a new artist to listen to; she has fantastic lyrics and a voice. The lyrics connect deeply with my mood today. I highly recommend hearing the emotions of that song.

Since the New Year started, I found the strength to cut many ties and live on my own better. It’s indeed challenging, as Freddie Mercury sings in his “Living on my own” song, but it’s true.

My respect for that singer is big. He has been through painful love and broken trust. That man started many times from zero in his career.

I enjoyed the movie for Queen because when I watch a movie, it’s something meaningful. Wasting my time on something unworthy is not my cup of tea. I rarely pay attention to the TV.

However, I wrote some time ago about my favorite Triolet poem form. Recently my muse for Poetry is a bit dry. I will find it soon. While I reworked my schedule with daily tasks, the time got more precious. It was an “Aha” moment for me to free my time for everything I started last year and do my best to finish it. My mood is a bit nostalgic, but honesty is at its peak as always. Discipline is off the charts because that way it’s easier to move on.

Delusions are good and helpful when there is nothing else to do. Or people prefer to play emotionally unavailable. Do You?

It’s a success for them, but they should stay alone to keep the illusional thinking flowing. Since I don’t have much free time, my idea is to make the best of it, and move forward. That creates inner motivation for me and through the emotional pain, I keep going toward my goals. It’s the famous Scorpio transformation, I suppose. 🙂

Looking for soulmates made me delusional and unfocused. I decide to let everyone from my life go and shine on my own because, after my harsh introspection, I found out I mess up every relationship I go into, so keeping my distance is the best choice for me and the other people.

I got tired of delusions and they indeed led me nowhere.

It’s a lonely walk, but I have always been on it, since a young age. I never gave up hope on meeting my one and only person. Recently my crashing, arrogant and straightforward attitude proved to me that men do not want a woman like me, or at least, they show no interest. I and everyone are free to go. There is no sharing the road for me with someone at that current moment.

Probably my free spirit is the problem. Who knows?

It’s a bit late to change in my middle age. Not impossible, though, because people always transform. My uncertainty about the success of finding true love conquest is growing bigger daily. But there is still hope when I look into happy couples every day.