Walking Away From The Loved Person Is A Choice

Walking Away From The Loved person is a choice

Walking Away From The Loved Person Is A Choice

that not many people make

Then and now, it always has been about choosing the personal reality. Everyone had someone they loved so deeply, and heartfully, who they thought couldn’t live without. But, when the relationship started to wreck because of communication’s lack, way too many quarrels, and secrets, even for good, one of the partners or both wanted to break free. Then the time to walk away from the loved person comes.

Through pain, tears, uncertainty, and a lack of courage, the period may take many years. For me to break away from my past relationships similar patterns of imbalance between giving and taking, took between 6 months and 8 years. Sometimes, I blame my honest loyalty on moving away slower than appropriate by a partner that shows he doesn’t care much about me because I am not his priority. Sticking by a man’s side in silence has its flaws. That will not change in my case because when I choose someone, it’s forever, even if he breaks up my heart. It’s the way I will not change because it’s a part of my personality.

However, that gave me a lot of love for other people from distance. It’s not bad though. May the Universe give my positive energy to everyone I have met.

Someday, the love boomerang may come back to me.

Why walking away from a loved person is challenging?

Usually, Lovers like to spend a lot of time together – on the phone or in person, not so much on messages. From the first month of the relationship starts to get clear where the dating will go. Intuition never lies, but people don’t listen to it because of their rose-colored glasses while having butterflies in their stomachs. Depending on the emotions, people start to understand better what they have to give and receive in the new-formed bond first six months.

In my past relationships, there was an imbalance. I gave everything too soon and the men left me emotionally early – around the third month. Although my mind was clear, I stood along with those I loved, poisoning the feeling between us. I started to wonder how they even put up with me for so long time. Yes, they are good men and for me, looking at my past actions, I don’t have any right to complain. Walking away in silence from those I loved the most was my choice. They respected it and were happy about it. That means there was never true love in the way I felt and imagine it between us.

Avoiding the red flags because my heart wanted to be with my partners brought me no good. After my numerous deep introspection today, I found some of my past mistakes, but time can’t turn back. So, I keep moving on trying not to be a fool again because of my life’s perceptions.

The reason for walking away is someone is so hurt and uncertain about another person’s feelings for many reasons, that it’s unbearable.

The last breakup I had, was a weird dialogue. “How should I start the topic about us like a couple since  I don’t know if the other side of the couple thinks it? I was afraid you break the bond between us,” and the reply was: “I expected that.  You’re creating complications. Stop thinking and calm down. You don’t deserve to speak with me because you don’t understand anything. Bye.”

Who’s wrong or right doesn’t matter because facts and actions speak louder than words. Whenever there aren’t any, things are clear for everyone. I walked away from that relationship, even though I love deeply that man and forever will do. It’s about my pride and honor as a human. I’m complicated but want to know the truth and not be deceived by mixed signals. If someone’s time and efforts are unworthy of me, so be it, I will not disrupt anyone. If a man is interested, he will call, meet, and text me. I give the same in return.  That’s the end of my current romantic stories vision. Everything else is procrastinating the breakup between two partners.

Walking away may look differently on the male’s side. They may push intentionally women because they love them or want to become more stable to enter a relationship. Even if that’s the case, they, at least, should tell why they do whatever or give a hint by showing interest and attention to their women. Otherwise, females will leave with hurt pride, low self-esteem, the feeling of undesirability, and a broken heart.

The choice to leave or not is important and gives different consequences. Will they be bearable?

Usually, the pain of leaving someone loved is because the relationship becomes stagnant, overdue outlived since partners don’t evolve as persons and couples, or both feel unappreciated. After all, they feared sharing their thoughts freely with each other. If people can’t express themselves in front of their lovers, there is no trust foundation and respect the differences. Problems are in the long-time silence, overthinking, or unwillingness to speak the truth directly.

There are many other reasons to leave someone loved, but the heart knows best when and if it’s time to do it. That happens only if people listen to it without logical analysis.


“No One Sees Me But The Silver Moon”

"No one sees me but the silver moon"

“No One Sees Me But The Silver Moon”

is an excellent explanation for today’s lack of human relationships of any kind.

While I drove my car today, I listened deeper to Enrique Iglesias’s “Tired of Being Sorry”‘s lyrics. Yesterday I was on a challenging client’s visitation and my car got stuck in the mud. I was afraid to move out of it and asked the client as a man to help me out. Later in the evening, I felt very tired of everything in my life recently. All the work in professional and personal life that goes unnoticed, the lack of human contacts, etc.

However, after a few lonely tears dropped down my tired face, I went to sleep.

Insomnia was always my life’s companion and that night was no exception. Looking at the moon and thinking about nobody sees me outside Luna, I decided to watch it a bit more.  Then I realized how “Tired Of Being Sorry” kept me going until now in my life.

Every time in business and other relationships I was the one to apologize and make amends. It’s good to do it once in a while, but every time to make some relationship to work is unhealthy and one-sided. It’s a fact that tango takes two.

When the rest of the world With whom I’ve crossed and I’ve quarreled” is a silent cry from a lonely heart to others, seeking a safe place in someone’s arms.

Unfortunately, that rarely happens nowadays, based on my experience. I envy in a good way to everyone who has shoulders to hug and hide from the daily harshness. In my case that is given only to my child. As for me, it seems I should embrace my loneliness fully.

The most mistakes I made in my past relationships were because I was utterly lonely, feeling insecure and unvalued. Most men I was involved with saw right through my eyes and ran away.  So, yes, my saying to them is like in that song: “Maybe you were right, but baby, I was lonely.”

Would I run away if I was in the same situation?

No, because I like to support and inspire my close-to-heart people, and never run away when times are challenging. That is proof of genuine care. But that is unappreciated because other things in men’s eyes seem more important—outlooks, obedience, and a feeling of peace when with someone despite everything.

My belief is men should care emotionally, sexually, and financially for their women. The same goes for females. Gentlemen should be loyal to the ladies they chose to be theirs. Together both partners can build something bigger than individual interests and satisfaction. I offered that to my past lovers and will do it with future ones, so I am tired of being sorry for the way I am. It’s better to stay single than go for less than what I give in terms of emotions, understanding, and sharing the burden and happiness with the one I will love someday. Of course, mutual feelings are a must.

In one relationship the partners should feel appreciated, respected, and genuinely loved through words and actions.

“For a thousand reasons that I know to share forever the unrest with all the demons I possess beneath the silver moon” sounds like a pure will for someone to be accepted with their dark sides. Not many people like others’ bad days but that’s the essence of a successful love story. Unfortunately, romances break down the moment when a dark side is shown.

For example, I wasn’t respected when in a bad mood. In these moments my sensitivity, sarcasm, and heart walls show up, seeming unbreakable but the truth is I hope my partner stays brave and keeps going with me.

Exactly then the thread between me and a lover was cut because he didn’t try to go through and see my true feelings. My thought is the darkest hours in someone’s life and having then someone by their side is the most sincere love confession. I have felt it only by the silver moon outside.

The men I have been with couldn’t go through my wall to not hurt themselves.

The worst was they didn’t want to understand my reasons or be compassionate with my pain. As for me,  I went to the darkest places in my men’s heads and wasn’t scared. It was the opposite. I felt proud they let me there but when they saw my blackness, males started to fear me.

My principle is in good or worse to choose always my man. But I was never chosen by them. Maybe they didn’t know how to react and didn’t even try to do it.

“Eighth and Ocean Drive With all the vampires and their brides We’re all bloodless and blind And longing for a life Beyond the silver moon” seems similar to another well-explained word for humans who make themselves asleep.

Truth under the silver moon is not pretty today.

People are like ghosts who dance alone behind closed doors to the outside world. They are living in the day their unfulfilling lives.

Yes, I know many human beings but they act like energy vampires who care only for themselves. It made me feel sorry for how mind-narrowed they are or guilty for something I did, being myself. No, I am not arrogant, but an open mind and a closed one make a big difference in energy levels and positivity.

Sooner or later, a positive attitude will attract the same. It’s how the Universe works.

“I’m standing in the street Crying out for you”is the sentence I felt many years ago and just recently, stopped standing and shedding tears for the wrong men. I am unsure why my attraction was to unavailable people but my feelings now are clear, my heart healed and my mind in peace. That happened after two years of self-development and overthinking the situations until I accepted them as they are. Some things can’t be changed as one of my best friends said: “Only God knows what will happen because he wrote it already.”

“So far away – so outer space I’ve trashed myself – I’ve lost my way I’ve got to get to you got to get to you,” is about the limit people put on themselves when they create illusions in their minds for a relationship or another person’s image. That mindset makes humans forget they also have individual needs for attention and respect, which are mandatory in every life relationship. Becoming trash by self-choice is exactly like a mental illness treated by a psychiatrist. That can be avoided with proper sharing and objective thinking about the real situation of a romance, friendship, etc.

“No one sees me But the silver moon” still is a powerful theme for me because right said, I don’t like to be the center of attention and prefer staying in the dark shadows than in bright spotlights. I went through everything until now alone because my will to not look weak is powerful and also I take care of my chaotic emotions better when no one is around. It’s not about mistrust but more like a routine that maybe I should change.
One of my fears is to be seen as a weakling and only the silver moon keeps safe my secret.
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