New Dress – Poem

Dedication to new clothes.

I love the new dress

It shows a beginning

For something fresh

The times are changing

While I cut old life’s grass

Of past revolutions

Into resounding comfort

Of my shedding skin

That recognized me

Into the mind’s mirror

Saying goodbye to patterns

Which never worked

With the shifting ground

I try to stand on

Because there is no time

To bypass the blow

And missed forgiveness

I am way too old

Waiting for miracles

Is no more of my posts

Until there’s the new reality

Buying a white dress

As the purity symbolism

I somewhere lost

Sticking in mud

Of daily confusions

Should I stay or go?

Unapologetic.

I tried to move on

But that somehow didn’t happen

Between dances of ghosts

And circles begone

Of my old cemetery

Once I called home

It’s time for a newfangled basis

While I buy a new dress

Like a Polka dot

I look for another place,

Job and a lover.

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Changes are inevitable. It’s funny how the Universe shows me the way of not buying the same old way the new dresses. Yes, I ordered a few dresses from China, lost money, and never received them. Maybe is for the better because other changes showed up before my pretty distracted nose by choice.

What do I mean?

I have my old visions and never change them if something seriously doesn’t shake me up. For example, I wanted to go to another place for a man, but my car broke. He was not my man and I found it out later. Back in time, I ordered new dresses from a China’s shop. When they came, were too small, and I never wore them. Last week, I lost money from ordering clothes from an unfortunate shop.

Today, I do not go anywhere for a man and buy no china dresses. Both scenarios hurt me because I love pretty frocks and the adrenalin of meeting someone new. My calmness became unquestionable. I learned the lesson “What flows, will flow and never goes back, with or without outside pressure,” and that makes me more relaxed.

On recent nights I can’t sleep well. It’s a clear sign for me that new changes are growing to come into my life. I should face them bravely and cut the losses as much as possible.