Steps Backward – Poem
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Dedicated to the past wounds that today’s healing
I made two steps forward
Then four steps backward
The moment I opened
My tightly closed heart,
I met indifference
Or maybe it was polite talk?
Today it doesn’t matter
I understood that I seem far
Into another universe
Of oceans apart
These big parallels
Have made me step backward
I think it is obvious
From platonic discourse
That I should continue
Doing my steps backward
Because there is a saying
Between two persons
There are ten steps in the diapasons
When the one doing the five
But the other fearfully hides,
The actor should move on,
But with steps backward
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I have written that poem back in April 2022. My heart’s healing was still between the past and present of my life then.
Why April?
It was spring, the fourth month of the year, and the beginning of a change for me in many personal departments. They were exactly four: worsened health, a fated lover, a new career idea, and refined driving skills. Today I was reminded about April because I found out about my driving violations in the same month and number. Based on numerology, the number 4 means a realistic view of life.
Taking a look at me now, I see my lack of practical life vision.
The interesting fact is my life changed a lot. The people who I attracted to myself in the last year are practical, stable, conservative, and realistic. It seems my feminine energy changed for good. I still don’t understand how that happened, but my intuition is rarely wrong.
What’s the point of Steps Backward?
These steps help to rethink many situations and see the signs of something that is working or not. For me, today made me remember how far I came, and how to walk further. It’s a long road that my eyes do not see yet. The reminder I got with the penalty slips is a clear sign I should look back and burn old foundations to open myself up for something new after paying my debts in finance and karma, of course.