Tired Of Delusions – Triolet Poem

Dedicated to Illusionary Lovers

I’m tired of delusions.

They lead me nowhere.

I have been unloved in inclusion.

I’m tired of delusions

And made myself an exclusion.

There is no love out there.

I’m tired of delusions.

They lead me nowhere.

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I found a new artist to listen to; she has fantastic lyrics and a voice. The lyrics connect deeply with my mood today. I highly recommend hearing the emotions of that song.

Since the New Year started, I found the strength to cut many ties and live on my own better. It’s indeed challenging, as Freddie Mercury sings in his “Living on my own” song, but it’s true.

My respect for that singer is big. He has been through painful love and broken trust. That man started many times from zero in his career.

I enjoyed the movie for Queen because when I watch a movie, it’s something meaningful. Wasting my time on something unworthy is not my cup of tea. I rarely pay attention to the TV.

However, I wrote some time ago about my favorite Triolet poem form. Recently my muse for Poetry is a bit dry. I will find it soon. While I reworked my schedule with daily tasks, the time got more precious. It was an “Aha” moment for me to free my time for everything I started last year and do my best to finish it. My mood is a bit nostalgic, but honesty is at its peak as always. Discipline is off the charts because that way it’s easier to move on.

Delusions are good and helpful when there is nothing else to do. Or people prefer to play emotionally unavailable. Do You?

It’s a success for them, but they should stay alone to keep the illusional thinking flowing. Since I don’t have much free time, my idea is to make the best of it, and move forward. That creates inner motivation for me and through the emotional pain, I keep going toward my goals. It’s the famous Scorpio transformation, I suppose. 🙂

Looking for soulmates made me delusional and unfocused. I decide to let everyone from my life go and shine on my own because, after my harsh introspection, I found out I mess up every relationship I go into, so keeping my distance is the best choice for me and the other people.

I got tired of delusions and they indeed led me nowhere.

It’s a lonely walk, but I have always been on it, since a young age. I never gave up hope on meeting my one and only person. Recently my crashing, arrogant and straightforward attitude proved to me that men do not want a woman like me, or at least, they show no interest. I and everyone are free to go. There is no sharing the road for me with someone at that current moment.

Probably my free spirit is the problem. Who knows?

It’s a bit late to change in my middle age. Not impossible, though, because people always transform. My uncertainty about the success of finding true love conquest is growing bigger daily. But there is still hope when I look into happy couples every day.